I just realised, that i have posted pictures here that look very very different in different contrast adjustments. the point is, that i have done all my posted stuff when my screen contrats was set on 70% and if you have your screen contrast set on 100% all of my stuff will not look like they were made to look like.
so if you could be so nice, please check your screen contrast before judging my work.
thank you for your co-operation ma'am